Family Judgements

Sometime, I forget that people do not "approve" of me. I go about my life in a consistancy of my own and do not reall stop and wonder who likes me, who is talking about me. And when it comes up, it sometimes blind sides me that now in 2007 that people seem to still feel threatened and somehow disapproving of "MY Lifestyle". One of my cousins told me the other day that another cousin, who has had a very very hard life-with lots of drugs and alcohol - multiple husbands and men in and out of her house and life like a revolving door. Apparantly, she calls here daughter, who is 8 years old, a Dyke and tells her that she looks like me. So a drug addict who is basically unsuccessful at life, abuses her children with her words and lifestyle, and is sexually over-active, judges me and tells her daughter not to be like me. I am a college graduate, a business owner, I am relatively healthy, I care about people and help people and consider my self to be a pretty decent person. I am not saying this to "toot my horn" I am saying this because I am shocked that all I am or ever do is based and judged on the fact that I am a Lesbian. It is painfully obvious that society has learned to tolerate us in their presence but that they do not get, nor want to get what it is we Really do, nor do they care of our accomplishments. It is sad that children of these kinds of people are subject to their belief. I am tearful that an 8 year old girl has to go through such things. And it makes me aware of the La La land I live in sometimes where I guess I either pretend, or don't care if people are judging me.

Stay Safe out there gals, and keep on doing what your doing. I approve of you and I am proud of you. Write the words ladies, take those photos, give love to all you can and know that you are walking in the white light and their judgement cannot hurt you unless you give your constant thoughts over to it or seek their approval.

take care